Where to go next? Japan, Korea, Mongolia, China?

I feel like my life is at a crossroad, and there are so many paths I can take.

I could continue my life in Taiwan - which is great. But the issue is, my soul wants the next challenge. I want to keep growing.

I fear that if I return to my home in Taipei, I will stagnate. Fall into the same routine again. Not moving forward.

I believe a life of risk and adventure is best suited for me. I don't think a stable normal life is healthy for me.

I could take a risk, travel and shoot videos.

I could go to Japan to study Japanese.

I could be an overseas model, doing 3-month contracts in Japan, China, and Korea.

Or I could stay in Taiwan, livestream here, shoot videos here, build connections here.

Honestly, all are good options. Honestly, I could do them all.

Perhaps that is the answer.

I think the important thing is, you do want you want to do, without fear of the what ifs and the risks. Just bravely move forward and craft your fate. Never let fear influence your decision.

So I guess the important question is, what do I fear right now? Why do I feel this fear?

The right decision, perhaps, is behind this fear. The thing I really want could just lie on the other side. That is my true desire. But this veil of fear is what is blinding me.

So then, the answer is, fuck you. Break through it. Do what you want to do. And bend the universe to your will.