A lot has been happening recently, and sometimes it's hard to manage
The more the attention of others have been focused on me, the more I realize that our reality is an illusion created by the thoughts of other humans beings, and how what I want most in life is to explore reality at its truest core.
I've seen tremendous success in the growth of my personal brand, but it feels like a floodgate has been opened
There is no end to the messages.
The comments, the emails, the amount of people wanting a piece of me.
It feels like I have been thrown into the colosseum filled with starving lions and they are all tearing me limb by limb apart.
I feel like a majority of my time now is spent protecting my time.
What a silly predicament and how paradoxical.
The decision-making becomes ever more exhausting, as you have to deligate ever more carefully. What is the priority, what should I be doing right now, is always the question.
Even small interactions and messages can become massive distractions and disrupt the flow of the entire day.
To maintain a high-level of perfomance, I have to maintain an ever so high-level of focus. They come hand-in-hand. You cannot achieve great goals unless you are focused.
Focus is the cutting out of everything, all of the noise, except for the one thing that matters, your dream, mission, and ambition.
It's a constant balancing act. The moment I focus my time and energy on one thing, all other things start to drop. It's the tipping of a scale.
I am happy yes, and proud. But when you accomplish something, it just makes you realize what you are capable of achieiving, and that can make you ever so more hungry. It raises your ambitions, as you unlock knowledge and gain skills, you realize how much you can do on this earth before you die.
In some ways, the ignorance before was like a sleeping veil, to live and be comfortable with your lot, to not have to think so much, to just "live your life" in the system and in the minds of others.
Others' ideas and thoughts have shaped your entire existence, to the point where you are not even consciously living your life.
But the moment you start thinking for yourself, is the moment the absurdity of the world becomes apparent. All the things we took for granted before, turns out the just be another human's preconceptions and thoughts, passed down to give you an illusion of how the world is.
But when you realize the world is how it is, and not how other humans tell you how it is, then things become wild. The sheer beauty and awe of nature and reality becomes so piercing and exciting.
I honestly really only care about dedicating my life to explore this. All other things, are fun and games, this dream world we humans created for ourselves to keep ourselves sane or to pacate others. But I am a curious person, I want to know more, I want to expand more, explore more, move past these artificial boundaries.
I don't care about the thoughts of others, I only care about experience and knowledge.
